Julie A. Gerrard.

Never a
blank page.

A page to color, and a page that already gives you somewhere to start. Journals for the things that are hard to say out loud, and fantasy for the nights you'd rather be somewhere else.

Feel It Out — $12.99

Paperback · 8.5 × 11 · 66 pages · ages 12–17 · on Amazon

Cover of Feel It Out: a teal portrait of a girl with fire-colored hair, her face left uncolored for the reader to fill in
Out now

Feel It Out

Thirty feelings, one per spread. A full-page scene to color on the left. A page to say what actually happened on the right. It never hands her a blank page — which is where most journals die.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl mid-argument, drawn in detailed line art

Scenes, not smiley faces

Every page shows the reason for the feeling, not a cartoon face labelled "angry". Detailed enough to be worth half an hour and a decent set of pencils.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl sitting alone while others sit together

One honest line to start

Then three questions she can actually answer — "Who deserved it, and who actually got it?" — and a body check, so she can name where it landed before she has words for it.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl at a window in morning light

The good days count too

Furious, left out and numb are in here. So are proud, brave, loved, and just fine, actually. It isn't a mood tracker and it isn't a record of bad weeks.

For the grown-up buying it

Before you hand it to her

Most people buying this are a mother, an aunt, a teacher or a counsellor, and every one of them is asking the same question. Here's the straight answer.

Cover of Moonwoven Menagerie: a woman in a flowing gown reaching up to a great scaled dragon, framed by hibiscus and a crescent moon
Coming next

Moonwoven
Menagerie

Forty enchanted designs — dragons, griffins, fae and hidden realms — and one enemies-to-lovers story you name yourself.

Same bones as Feel It Out, different world entirely. Color the scene on one side. On the reverse, a few lines of story open the door — an ancient loyalty, an uneasy bargain, a signet you were told to bury — and the rest of the page is yours.

Twelve of those pages belong to one story, marked with a crescent in the corner so you can find them. Nobody in it has a name, because you write the names in at the front. After that he is yours: the one who was sent to kill you and didn't, the voice you'd know behind any mask, the man who names his allegiance in three words and none of them are the ones he was ordered to say. You decide how it ends. You decide whether it ends.

☾ Before you begin

He is called

The one who warns you is called

And when they ask, you are called

40 designs · 40 story openings · 12 of them one arc · in progress · not yet on sale

A spread from Moonwoven Menagerie: on the left a short story opening about a dragon that has guarded a truth for centuries, with the rest of the page left blank to write on; on the right, a detailed coloring page of a griffin beneath a vaulted winter gate
One spread. The story starts it; you finish it.
Coloring page: a long serpentine dragon rising from a lily pond beside a willow and a stone folly
10 · What the Water Gave Back The Drowned City
Coloring page: a rider resting against her sleeping dragon at a mountain camp under a crescent moon
35 · Three Kingdoms, One Letter The Dragon Holds

Five worlds, eight designs each

The Winter Court

Closed gates, cold banners, and a court that remembers every exile by name.

The Drowned City

Tides, lily water, a court beneath the waterline, and the bridges that fell.

The Moonlit Gardens

Everything that grows at night, and the gates left overgrown behind it.

The Celestial Houses

Star charts, empty sky, and the people who read fate for a living.

The Dragon Holds

Hoards, hatcheries, libraries. The places dragons keep what matters.

Each world stands alone. Colored in order, they are one journey. Each one is also a book I intend to come back to.

For the friend who read all five books in one weekend and has nowhere to put it. Large 8.5 × 11 pages, matte cover, detailed enough to be worth an evening and a good set of pencils.

In progress

What's coming

One format, many rooms. The same idea holds for anyone stuck in a season they don't have words for yet — which turns out to be most of us, at some point.

Planned

The Feel It Out line

  • Boys, same age range
  • A Christian edition, with verses
  • Kids being bullied
  • Kids of divorce
  • Losing a parent
  • Military kids
  • Leaving something that hurt
On the list

Later seasons

  • First year away at college
  • New mothers
  • The empty nest
  • Foster and adoptive families
  • Caregivers
  • Nurses and teachers
  • Losing a pet
The other shelf

Moonwoven, after book one

Five worlds went into the first book, eight designs each. Every one of them has more in it than eight pages can hold, and the thread running through them does not finish where the book does.

  • A world per volume, deeper each time
  • The story carried forward, still unnamed
  • More of the courts, less of the scenery
Julie A. Gerrard

"Write about your feelings" is where most journals die. A blank page is a dare.

Who's writing this

I write the books I went looking for and couldn't find. Feel It Out started with a simple problem: journals for teenage girls either hand you a blank page and call it healing, or hand you affirmations nobody believes. Neither survives contact with an actual fifteen-year-old having an actual bad week.

I'm not a therapist. I'm a mother of two daughters, a business owner, and someone who worked out a long time ago that the useful question is almost never the polite one. That's the voice the books are written in — big sister, not clinician.

I live in Colorado with my husband, our dogs, and a horse with opinions.