Julie A. Gerrard.

Never a
blank page.

A page to color, and a page that already gives you somewhere to start. Journals for the things that are hard to say out loud, and fantasy for the nights you'd rather be somewhere else.

Feel It Out — $12.99 Moonwoven Menagerie — $14.99

Both paperback, 8.5 × 11, on Amazon. Feel It Out is for ages 12–17; Moonwoven Menagerie is for adults. Also out now: the Chapter & Verse scripture books, The Gospel of John, First Corinthians, and Behold the Lamb for children.

Cover of Feel It Out: a teal portrait of a girl with fire-colored hair, her face left uncolored for the reader to fill in
Out now

Feel It Out

Thirty feelings, one per spread. A full-page scene to color on the left. A page to say what actually happened on the right. It never hands her a blank page — which is where most journals die.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl mid-argument, drawn in detailed line art

Scenes, not smiley faces

Every page shows the reason for the feeling, not a cartoon face labelled "angry". Detailed enough to be worth half an hour and a decent set of pencils.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl sitting alone while others sit together

One honest line to start

Then three questions she can actually answer — "Who deserved it, and who actually got it?" — and a body check, so she can name where it landed before she has words for it.

A coloring page from Feel It Out: a girl at a window in morning light

The good days count too

Furious, left out and numb are in here. So are proud, brave, loved, and just fine, actually. It isn't a mood tracker and it isn't a record of bad weeks.

For the grown-up buying it

Before you hand it to her

Most people buying this are a mother, an aunt, a teacher or a counsellor, and every one of them is asking the same question. Here's the straight answer.

Cover of Moonwoven Menagerie: a woman in a flowing gown reaching up to a great scaled dragon, framed by hibiscus and a crescent moon
Out now

Moonwoven
Menagerie

Forty enchanted designs — dragons, griffins, fae and hidden realms — and one enemies-to-lovers story you name yourself.

Same bones as Feel It Out, different world entirely. Color the scene on one side. On the reverse, a few lines of story open the door — an ancient loyalty, an uneasy bargain, a signet you were told to bury — and the rest of the page is yours.

Twelve of those pages belong to one story, marked with a crescent in the corner so you can find them. Nobody in it has a name, because you write the names in at the front. After that he is yours: the one who was sent to kill you and didn't, the voice you'd know behind any mask, the man who names his allegiance in three words and none of them are the ones he was ordered to say. You decide how it ends. You decide whether it ends.

☾ Before you begin

He is called

The one who warns you is called

And when they ask, you are called

Moonwoven Menagerie — $14.99

Paperback · 8.5 × 11 · 90 pages · for adults · on Amazon

A spread from Moonwoven Menagerie: on the left a short story opening about a dragon that has guarded a truth for centuries, with the rest of the page left blank to write on; on the right, a detailed coloring page of a griffin beneath a vaulted winter gate
One spread. The story starts it; you finish it.
Coloring page: a long serpentine dragon rising from a lily pond beside a willow and a stone folly
10 · What the Water Gave Back The Drowned City
Coloring page: a rider resting against her sleeping dragon at a mountain camp under a crescent moon
35 · Three Kingdoms, One Letter The Dragon Holds

Five worlds, eight designs each

The Winter Court

Closed gates, cold banners, and a court that remembers every exile by name.

The Drowned City

Tides, lily water, a court beneath the waterline, and the bridges that fell.

The Moonlit Gardens

Everything that grows at night, and the gates left overgrown behind it.

The Celestial Houses

Star charts, empty sky, and the people who read fate for a living.

The Dragon Holds

Hoards, hatcheries, libraries. The places dragons keep what matters.

Each world stands alone. Colored in order, they are one journey. Each one is also a book I intend to come back to.

For the friend who read all five books in one weekend and has nowhere to put it. Large 8.5 × 11 pages, matte cover, detailed enough to be worth an evening and a good set of pencils.

Cover of The Gospel of John: a line-drawn shore at sunrise with lilies and reeds in the foreground, water and a distant walled town beyond
Out now · Chapter & Verse

The Gospel
of John

Twenty-one chapters. Twenty-one illustrations. One page at a time.

The whole of John, complete and unabridged, in the King James Version. Not a verse somebody else picked out for you — the entire chapter, set out to be read properly, with an original fine-line illustration facing it and ruled space underneath for whatever it left you with.

The pictures stay with the place and the moment rather than the face. A vine heavy with fruit. A shepherd's crook left against a wall. A stone rolled back at Bethany and the grave clothes folded. You can spend an hour on any one of them without having decided anything about it first.

Read the chapter. Write what it left you with in the space below it. Then turn the page and spend an hour with the picture. In whichever order suits the day you're having.

The Gospel of John — $13.99

Paperback · 8.5 × 11 · 92 pages · for adults · on Amazon

A spread from The Gospel of John: on the left a detailed coloring page of an ancient grapevine above a terraced valley; on the right the full text of John 15 in the King James Version with ruled journaling space
One chapter. The picture, the text, and room for your own thoughts.
Coloring page: an old grapevine heavy with fruit, trained on a post above a terraced valley
John 15 · The true vine
Coloring page: a rock-cut tomb at Bethany with the stone rolled back, framed by an olive tree
John 11 · The stone rolled away

The rest of the series

First Corinthians

All sixteen chapters, same format. Out now, just below.

Behold the Lamb

The same twenty-one chapters for ages 7 to 11, one line from each and a picture a child can actually finish. So a parent and a child can be on the same page, in both senses. Out now.

After that

One book per book, for as long as it keeps being worth doing.

Scripture is the King James Version, which is in the public domain and belongs to everybody. The illustrations are original to these editions and made with AI assistance, edited by me — which I'd rather tell you on the website than have you work out on page forty.

Cover of First Corinthians: a line-drawn colonnade and harbour at Corinth, with lilies and a lamp in the foreground
Out now · Chapter & Verse

First
Corinthians

Sixteen chapters. Sixteen illustrations. The letter nobody writes to a church that has it all figured out.

Same format as John, complete and unabridged in the King James Version: the whole chapter set out to be read, an original fine-line illustration facing it, and ruled space underneath for what it left you with.

Paul is writing to a congregation arguing about status, food, lawsuits and who outranks whom, and most of what he says to them has not dated at all. Chapter thirteen is the one read at weddings. In context it lands differently, because it arrives in the middle of an argument about which gifts make a person important, and answers that none of them do.

The pictures stay with the city and the household rather than the face. A bronze mirror on a table. A long table laid for a meal. A harp, a trumpet and a pair of cymbals set down after the noise stops.

First Corinthians — $12.99

Paperback · 8.5 × 11 · 70 pages · for adults · on Amazon

A spread from First Corinthians: on the left a detailed coloring page of a polished bronze mirror on a table beside an open doorway; on the right the full text of 1 Corinthians 13 in the King James Version with ruled journaling space
One chapter. The picture, the text, and room for your own thoughts.
Coloring page: a standing bronze mirror on a household table, with a wooden toy horse beside it and a colonnade through the open door
1 Corinthians 13 · Through a glass, darkly
Coloring page: a long table laid with bread, bowls and cups, lamps hanging above it
1 Corinthians 11 · This do in remembrance

The series so far

The Gospel of John

All twenty-one chapters, the first book in the series. Up above, or on Amazon.

Behold the Lamb

The same twenty-one chapters for ages 7 to 11, one line from each and a picture a child can actually finish. Out now.

After that

One book per book, for as long as it keeps being worth doing.

Cover of Behold the Lamb: a line-drawn lamb standing in reeds at the water's edge, with hills and a far-off town behind it
Out now · Chapter & Verse

Behold
the Lamb

Twenty-one chapters. Twenty-one pictures. One page at a time.

The Gospel of John for children, one chapter to a page. At the top of each page is a line from that chapter, in the words of the King James Bible, not simplified and not reworded. Underneath is a picture to color, drawn from the very same chapter.

A grown-up can be reading the whole chapter in the full-size edition. You will both be on the same page, in both senses.

Every picture is backed by a blank page, because children use markers and markers go through paper. The drawings are detailed enough to be worth a long afternoon without being fiddly for smaller hands.

Behold the Lamb — $9.99

Paperback · 8.5 × 11 · 46 pages · ages 7 to 11 · on Amazon

A page from Behold the Lamb: the verse Behold the Lamb of God at the top, and below it a large coloring picture of a lamb standing among reeds by the water
One chapter to a page. The verse at the top, the picture below it, nothing else.
Coloring page: a woven basket of loaves and two fishes on the shore, with boats on the water behind
John 6 · Five loaves and two fishes
Coloring page: a heavy grapevine on its post with bunches of grapes, a basket at the foot of it and a vineyard beyond
John 15 · The vine and the branches

Reading it together

The same words

King James, exactly as written. Children get the real sentence, not a paraphrase written down to them.

The same chapters

All twenty-one, in order, matching the full-size edition page for page so the two can be used side by side.

Built for markers

A blank page behind every picture. Big 8.5 × 11 pages, drawn for ages 7 to 11.

In progress

What's coming

One format, many rooms. The same idea holds for anyone stuck in a season they don't have words for yet — which turns out to be most of us, at some point.

Planned

The Feel It Out line

  • Boys, same age range
  • A Christian edition, with verses
  • Kids being bullied
  • Kids of divorce
  • Losing a parent
  • Military kids
  • Leaving something that hurt
On the list

Later seasons

  • First year away at college
  • New mothers
  • The empty nest
  • Foster and adoptive families
  • Caregivers
  • Nurses and teachers
  • Losing a pet
The other shelf

Moonwoven, after book one

Five worlds went into the first book, eight designs each. Every one of them has more in it than eight pages can hold, and the thread running through them does not finish where the book does.

  • A world per volume, deeper each time
  • The story carried forward, still unnamed
  • More of the courts, less of the scenery
Julie A. Gerrard

"Write about your feelings" is where most journals die. A blank page is a dare.

Who's writing this

I write the books I went looking for and couldn't find. Feel It Out started with a simple problem: journals for teenage girls either hand you a blank page and call it healing, or hand you affirmations nobody believes. Neither survives contact with an actual fifteen-year-old having an actual bad week.

I'm not a therapist. I'm a mother of two daughters, a business owner, and someone who worked out a long time ago that the useful question is almost never the polite one. That's the voice the books are written in — big sister, not clinician.

I live in Colorado with my husband, our dogs, and a horse with opinions.